Thanks Chicki, I was in piecing a while ago..........
HS- some of it I have said before, but I never said it like this. I never laid it out like that using those examples. It's like when I teach. I have to use 8 different methods to make sure i reach every child. I guess this is the 8th different way for H.
He wants a promise of forever from me some how. I've never given him my side of that either.
My goal? who the hell knows what I want anymore. I want me to be happy. If that means he says we should divorce, then I'll move on and be happy. If he says he understands and wants to work on this, then I'll be happy with him wanting to work on things too.