Angelica, Your speculation is actually a very good one. I had thought the same thing. I know w/my xh, his childhood and early teen years weren't happy ones at all. He was only happy for a very short period of time in the marriage and it was like "is this all there is to it"? He was the type of person who would want all sorts of things and once he got them, he was happy a very, very short time. It's like he was constantly looking for something out there and could never find it. BTW, he couldn't tell you what he was looking for. He would always say, I'll know it when I see it. It's a very sad way to live, but he is one of those that was damaged very early on and never recovered from the damage because it started long before he could walk or talk. That's another story in and of itself.
So, yes, you are right on target w/my thoughts as well.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
