Bluepoet is back...

[BluePoet]

Well thanks.

Double hurt right now, because ex-bf has already moved on too. I had to break that off because he was being disrespectful to my concerns and being in another state, there was no way to work it out. He's already looking for dates where he is after only a week. THAT hurts.

It's not that I'm not being good to myself, I just feel so... replaceable. First ex-h, then ex-bf. And yet, except for not trusting ex-bf, I was practically perfect at being unselfish in my last R.

Is it just all looks that makes men fall at your feet, or what?
Not that I want them to -- I'd just tell them to stand up and just be with me.

I think the hardest part right now is not having a male shoulder to cry on. I know a sweet guy, but he's kinda too interested and I'd feel like I was using him. Don't want to go there.

As for the forum, yeah, I know a lot of people give up once the divorce is final. I was pretty sure I'd moved on until this week. I'm feeling pretty shut down and can't even do a good job of connecting with people anymore.

Feels like I want to go back into the nuthouse for a few days again...