I've become 'semi-comfortably numb'

[Kim07]

ponygirl~~Whew,,glad i'm not the only one is how I feel sometimes but thats' getting better as I realize that I had isolated myself for too long. Couldn't see the forest for the trees type stuff.

Its' amazing how many ephiphanys' one can have in a matter of weeks even days. My latest struggle w/my C is to figure out how to NOT pick alcoholics as mates, this is the 3rd.

Neither one of my parents are alcholics or were even close so dunno,,will have to ponder that one for some time,,on the other hand, IC also said the other day, "But Kim thats' how most people meet & get involved, when they're drinking." And "Everyone drinks." I said but BF#2 died 6yrs ago@age 36 from cirrhosis of the liver, doesn't that account for anything when trying to determine what & who i'm attracted to?!" IC said, 'no'.
I DO NOT agree,,and I certainly don't think that EVERYONE drinks, do you?

Self-esteem issues, yeah I hear ya there,,I think I will be dealing w/that the rest of my life,,at least we're working on it! It'll come slowly but surely we just have to learn to be patient,,i'm a Taurus, I should know what that means!

It sucks being the 'fixer' doesn't it? But you live and you learn and life will go on,,or so i've heard, he he.

I loved, The Wall, Pink Floyd,,introspective at times and very manipulative of young minds at others.

My personal favorite at this moment in time;
'Its' my Life' by Talk Talk,,great lyrics

Cheers, Kim