Return Engagement - thought we were a success

[In4Ride2]

I think I've already made some positive steps, even though it really is deja vu all over again. Called the doctor to get something to help me sleep and even help with depression. Trying to relax, journaling, taking time for myself. Went through all of it before and it's heartbreaking to think it was all for nothing.

Unfortunately I still had that teeny tiny hope in the back of my mind that he might be home or call tonight, even though I told him to only come here when I'm not here.

As I suspected, he came during the day and picked up his bicycle. That's his priorities now, riding his bicycle and/or motorcycle and otherwise doing things only for himself.

Is it possible for someone to have two midlife crises? I swear it seems to be the same thing all over again. But maybe I'm just being too hopeful and it's simply that he wants to start a new life without me, plain and simple, but he wants me to make it easier for him by not changing any of his circumstances relative to the house or money.

Any suggestions on what to do? I am unable at this point to say whether my goal is even to save the M. I'm thinking the LRT is the way to go, go completely dark, and as I said just do nothing and wait out the 12 months. I believe he's going to do whatever he wants anyway and believe me, I understand I have no control over him.