WAW1978's adventures in DB'ing -3

[waw1978]

Thank you everyone. I know I deserve to be #1. I just don't think H can let go of his family enough to let that happen. His attachment to his family and not being able to live his own life is a big part of our problems. He has only been to IC twice during this 3 months.

I would have enjoyed any sign that he was sorry. As they say talk is cheap. So its actions that would have to show me he really is sorry for how he treated me. I don't know, maybe him showing me support when he sees me crying or knows I hurting. There is a difference between pushing and being a caring individual. Maybe not being a vindictive bastard about possesions, custody of our child & dog...even this latest crap where he gave me back the savings that he had absconded and put in a safe, of course minus my half of the money for the trip.

I guess this is just one of those weeks. We all feel like giving up from time to time and I guess its just my turn. Its different now being in my own space. Even though I am lonely as hell when my daughter isn't there. I am trying to GAL. Going to join a local gym and try to meet new people. I moved back to my home town after 11 years. Weird but its not that easy to reconnect with people. Everyone is sort of doing there own thing. Word of my separation has spread like wildfire. Seems like the small town scuttlebuck is still alive & well.