why don't I listen to my own stories?

[Trixi]

Thank you both.
It's so tempting to try to "skip ahead" and figure out how it all turns out.

Regarding the brief period of time for leeway-- We both agree this can't go on indefinitely. He is getting to "know" that I am still in the background, he is getting sex, ..basically a lot of the marriage benefits, but living as a single guy during the week. I'm not so keen on that for the long term.

Having said that, I do certainly want to build up a lot more positive memories.

It hurts my feelings that he makes me feel like I am flawed for not wanting to flit around room talking to many many people. I can certainly make some adjustments to be more outgoing, and I wouldn't mind doing that--but I resent the implication that *I* can't make friends. Funnily enough, of the two of us, *I* am the one that has had the same friends for years. Wow- I am really mad about this. I knew I was offended--but I didn't know I was this pissed about it. Sheesh- last week a guy at the divorce support group who hardly talks, opened up to me and talked to me for an hour+. ARGH!

Breathe.

Okay-I think I will try to journal out my anger and just focus on having a good time with him.