You're doing fine it's never going to be perfect and smooth and you'll fall down, you'll fail, you'll succeed, be rejected and accepted, F*cked and not F*cked. You can handle it.
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About anger I can relate to not knowing how to express anger I'm still not very good at it. I think with anger is a call to action a Kicking the cow, hitting the kid or throwing the monitor. That's a response to a strong physical stimulation where there are no F#cking words that will satiate that destructive power.
I know that my fear of my anger is irrational, that I am not my father, and that I won't do what he did. I know I'm not some superhuman monster that can rip someone to shreds with his bare hands.
When the twins were young, and they would alternate crying so that I got no respite, I could feel my rage boiling inside me. I don't know why crying children would cause such rage, it just did. There was no chance in heck I was letting it out while holding/comforting young children, so I would just go absolutely blank. That was the only way I could handle it.
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Most of the time for myself there is a story that goes along with the anger a story that I keep telling my self that feeds the anger. Feeding the anger keeps it alive for longer than the stimulation that pissed me off in the first place.
Yah, its easy to let all those entitlement voices slip in while you are angry about something. BTDT
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
