Are we piecing yet?

[Have Faith]

lwb - thanks for the post.

EM - I'm so glad you are moving to piecing. I will get caught up on your thread. I'm glad you didn't give in/up.

Journaling

So our tee time was 10:10 on Saturday. He came over about 9:00. He has on jeans and changed into shorts. Said he had been to his storage unit to move from the one he had to a smaller one. The jeans were laying on the bed and I just had to check the pockets. Wish I hadn't. In his back pocket was a ticket to Shakespear (outdoor summer theater) for the prior night. Make me angry. Tried to keep my mouth shut, which I did, but really affected my attitude.

Golfed in the tournament. We didn't do very well. I wasn't playing well at all and I was not in a very good mood. Snooping just doesn't pay, it just doesn't pay....

Got home and got ready to go to dinner for my B-day. Had a nice dinner, but my mood still wasn't very good. I really think that the B-day bothered me. They usually don't, but when OW is 24 years younger, it hurts. He got me some nice golf clothes and told me I had another present, but would have to wait until I see my brother next week on our golf vacation. (oh, ya, H got the time off for our vacation and we will be spending a whole 7 days (9/7 - 9/14) golfing with family). I wonder where he is telling OW he will be.

The B-day card was nice. It said something to the effect "To my wonderful wife on her b-day" on the outside. The inside said something about hoping all of your prayers are answered. He then signed it "You are a wonderful women. Love, H" Not a Big deal, but so much better then the horrible Valentine's Day card I got.

He spent the night, but I told him he would have to sleep in the spare bedroom.

Sunday went to the second day of the tournament. Still not playing well. Still not in a very good mood. It was very hot and it took 6 hours to play. I was so hungry, which is not good because I tend to get very impatient when my blood sugar level drops. We finally ate at the club and went home around 5:00.

I sat around the rest of the evening and then watched a movie. We both kind of fell asleep. I got up to go to bed and asked him if he was staying the night. He said that he had assumed that he would. I told him that since we would be sleeping together all week on vacation, he could sleep with me if he wanted. I went to bed. He came to bed about 1/2 hr later. Not a lot of touching, but he did make an effort to give me a peck good night. I was surprised he stayed.

He left the next morning around 10:30 saying he had to do laundry and grocery shopping. Ya, right. It takes all day to do that. He did give me a peck good-bye and said ILY. It took me by surprise and I said ILY too purely as a reflex. I shouldn't have told him ILY too. I should have just said thank you.

So I don't hear from him again until today I get an e-mail saying he hoped I enjoyed my B-Day week-end and that it was so hard to leave me yesterday because he gets close to me. He write usually the day after is the most difficult for him. I wrote back saying thank you for the nice week end and that I was sorry for not being in a realy good mood. Than I said that everytime you leave it is your choice and while you say it is hard to leave me it must be worth it because you continue to make that choice. Then I said I would see him on Friday (the day we leave for vacation). Over the week-end, I had said something about him seeing OW everyday and not me and he said that was because I didn't want to see him everyday. So in my e-mail I but a ps-I have been thinking about something you said this week-end and that was that I didn't want to see you everyday and that was why we didn't see each other. That is not true. I don't want to see you before or after you have been with her, which is why we don't see each other more often.

So, I didn't do very well. I must get an attitude adjustment. One little snoop, really set the tone and it wasn't worth it.

Faith