SF, Your h is a prime example of what I'm talking about--denial and not really understanding what is going on w/himself. Some of these people have been clinically depressed most of this adult lives and have lived w/it and never understood what they had. They honestly don't know what it is to live and enjoy life because the "dark" cloud has hung over them for such a long time that it becomes a permanent feeling for them.
Very sad. At least people are talking more about depression and their commercials about it in magazines, television and on the radio these days. It's not something that you have to hide any longer.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.