There will be a lot of times when you feel weak. But the best thing you can do right now is live for you and your baby. If he wants this R bad enough he will figure out what choices and changes he needs to make for himself.
Just keep coming here and talking your way through this.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez