Yes, at least you are rational enough to realize there is a problem, ask any parents or trusted friends to help out with D. And get yourself right! Sounds to me like something is working very hard against you as you get closer to healing with your Husband. Funny how that works! Take care of yourself, take a walk get your mind off it.
Married:10 years D final 8/28/08 10 minutes is all it took Life goes on and DB was no small part in growing from the Divorce!