Thanks for the support CVA and bar! BTW, bar, taking a break from these boards means, for me, only checking in and posting every few days. Didn't you know that?
This is what I think I need to do. These cards that I (all of us really) have been dealt stink. What we are doing (trying to do) is very very tough. We all need to take a long hard look at ourselves and our roles in this mess, and to own up to our share of the responsibility. But I have done that. Really. I need to keep it in mind, and revisit it from time to time, but I have owned up to my role. Now, what I need to do is not let myself wallow in self pity and be angry. I cannot control this sitch, and it doesn stink, but I can control how I react to it. I do not want to be irritated, frustrated, bitter, angry, etc. It won't help my sitch and it won't help me individually either. These are the cards I have been dealt, and I have to make the best of it. Ok. Gonna start trying to do that (again) today. Wish me luck.
Nomo
M 39 W 39 M'd 10 yrs; T 14 yrs S7 D4 Bomb 5-8-05 W not working on M 1-22-07; EA 2-22 DB 4-10 S 6-11 No more C Link