Spent yesterday kind of wallowing in my own self pity.
Not so much pity I guess, more like pretty pissed. Just tired of bending over backward to make life run as smoothly as possible around the house.
See post above, no gratitude coming my direction, AT ALL!
I thought this was going to change, not sure why I thought that.
So revelation time. Had the thought...you know, the serious, I dont know if I want to do this thought, cross my mind several times this weekend.
I am just so sick of limbo it is getting really irritating. We act like a married couple / family till I leave at night. WTF.
What I am about to say is not obsessing, trust me. I do not think about this 24/7 as I did before but...is she still testing me? my moods, my temper, my anger, whatever?
She still literally will walk around me or whatever when I get close then at night its backrub time??? Again, WTF?
Is she afraid if she makes one freakin move toward me I will think the whole thing is fixed, I actually think that is true?
WAW's out there, ya think?
An embarassing and rhetorical question, how long? As Nomo stated, I literally had the same thought, the days are falling off the calendar. Is she just scheming to make her look better later? Already knows what she wants and playing me for the fool? I am no fool and like WAW78, I do not want to be anything less than #1.
Need a Red Bull of sorts ego boost, any takers?
Listening to Nickelback's "Rock Star" at the gym, sometimes I just want to fly out to LA and live the wild life for a few days and forget all this. Get a house on MTV Cribs, buy a Maserati or Aston Martin and call it a day.
OK back to reality, yes I could do that stuff, but I have 4 beautiful kids who need their Dad and their Dad needs them. The M is up to W's ever so fleeting mindset.
CVA out (its football season, so a Jim Rome sign off is appropriate!)
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
