I was on my knees begging...and you know the rest.

[MissingMyHoney]

Right now, I have all the time for approx 30 days since I recently finished my required 35 hrs of PMP training. I have to study for the exam but I have my schedule for that. If I tell her that, she will think I dont give a damn and will get more angry than anything else and thus setback everything. W will say I dont care if she fails.

bar, W is not from US so she thinks differently. We are of same culture.

[MissingMyHoney]

Not much to report today except W wants me to go shopping with her over the long weekend. W said she wanted to see what I was up to on my notebook and began to search for 'evidence' except there isnt or wasnt any at all.

W did some online browing on my notebook and got ideas of what she want to buy.

I went to bed and woke up late since I tossed an turned all night. All is well so far.

[bar]

I'm not from the US either. She won't get angry if you said you were going to check your schedule first and then helped her anyway.

Do you not mind if she checks your notebook like that?

[MissingMyHoney]

bar, I dont have anything to hide. Therefore she can. No EA's etc etc. No internet chat rooms, nor p**n sites visited. Nothing, W can check all she wants.

[MissingMyHoney]

Only thing that happend was W said she was going to Houston for the holiday wknd and if I was gonna take care of D. I told her I already made hotel reservations for the Chicago trip and she's welcome to join. W said for me to give her 500.00 for her trip, Im like for what? I aint giving her any money to have fun with OM. W dont have that kind of money either and she was kinda smiling when she was saying so.

I knew she was pulling my leg but it may seem real but its NOT. Therefore, I will ask her again today if she really wants to go to Chicago and I finalize the hotel reservations. It seems like she does want to take a trip but is probably scared we may get intimate while we are there and scare of the R rebuilding.

I will update later.

[MissingMyHoney]

Update, W called and I asked about her going to Houston. She said she wont and was laughing so I know for sure he was pulling my leg. I asked if she wanna go to Chicago and she said No, no, no. And no reason. I told her let's go and she said no. I said Yes, she said no. SO I told her I will call her later about it. Anyways, I made reservations for 3 nights stay in Chicago, even if she dont want to go. The thought is there and perhaps I will go alone or ask if I can take D and leave her at home.

I will see what she says.

[MissingMyHoney]

24, W dont want me to take D to Chicago. W dont want to go to Chicago. W isnt feeling well but it isnt severe enough that she cannot go. I told W I may cancel but she said for me to go alone. I dont know if I should do that since D will be asking for me and I dont want to be without D.

Besides if I leave them at home, I need to go get some groceries for their weekend since we are out of some stuff and I made reservations for 3 nights.

Lastnight, W said she is scared to go to Chicago since we may be intimate and I smile since that really wasnt the most important part of the trip. It could possibly happend but again it would have been W's decision to interact with me and we go from there.

So its possible that W is scared of this happening and keep on telling me NO that she dont want to go.

[MissingMyHoney]

A very long wknd, I cancelled the Chicago trip since W said she didnt wanted to go and she would have been intimate with me. No excuses here! Friday night, I watched a few movies while W did her assignment and I went to bed.

Saturday, we decided to go to the St Louis County Fair. There were a lot of attractions for the family and I thought we would have a great time. While driving to the fair, the wife was getting pissy since we are in traffic and said if she knew it would be this much traffic she would have stayed home. Im like if a county fair what do you expect! Earlier my friend called and asked what I was gonna do I told him I was gonna take my family to the fair and he said ok. Later, W asked if I was gonna meet my friend there and I said no. W was thinking my friend and I were gonna be there since she didnt wanted to be around him. For what reason, only God knows.

We got to the fair and had to wait until the parking attendants showed us where to park. Then, we walked prob 5 mins to the entrance. While walking W was getting pissy again about parking and if she knew we had to park in a field then she would not have decided to go to the fair. Again another stupid comment!

We got to the entrance and had to wait in line to get tickets, I saw how pissy the W was and didnt said anything. All I was thinking was to get into the fair and get some cold drinks for us. We walked no more than 50 feet from the entrance when W said she cant deal with all this walking and waiting in lines bla bla bla. I said if you are unhappy to be here then let us go home and we left. I didnt said absolutely ANYTHING to her. I said to myself, you cancelled the Chicago trip for the sake of not having sex and now you cancelled the fair for the sake of not wanting to walk and wait in line - ( and still NO sex for the entire wknd).

While driving home, I thought what more damage can W do this wkdn to D and I. Tears came to my eyes from the selfish reasons W didnt wanted to be out. I asked if she cared for some lunch and what did she wanted to eat - no answer. Therefore, I went to get Chinese take out. W left. I didnt know where she went and came back with her lunch - that's fine too!

I relaxed and I thought well why should I stay at home for her stupidity. I told her I was gonna go back to the fair and I left. While there, I met my friend and we hang out for a while until he arranged a dinner date for us.

There I go on a 'blind dinner date.' The dates were beautiful and I felt so different being around these women, nothing to it but felt alive. For once I was seeing myself as a total different person and thought closely about my R. Our dates understanding is that we only want to socialize and nothing else. This is good since our dates are from Romania and are in US for only a month while they get their intl work exprience done. Quite charming ladies and very knowledgeable.

We had a great time dining out and I dropped the back home later the evening. One of the ladies gave me her number and I told her I may do another dinner but not too soon. I told her she is a great person but I am NOT looking for a R. The OW understood and agreed we can be friends especially since she will be returning home in a few weeks.

Sunday, W and I took D to the park and D had fun. Later, I drove them to downtown St Louis and took a long ride back home. We ended the evening by having Italian food for dinner and wathced a movie. Yesterday, W got pissy with D since D wanted something but W said she was nagging her. I told her why she just give D candy or a lollipop or something so she can be quiet and D came to me. D hugged me and W said 'all of a sudden you are being a good dad and you werent before...' I said, I have ALWAYS been a good dad.

I told her she needs to have more patience with D and W got mad and said the reason why she didnt wanted to go to the fair was because she dont like to be in crowds - introverted. I didnt said anything but thought she needs to change this attitude, she needs to be out more and quit being such an introvert.

But we argued for a bit and I took D for a drive while W calmed down. Upon returning, D was much happier and W remained silent. Last night, W said she only have 3 more weeks left to stay at my place and I said you dont need to remind me every day, its not like I dont know your target date so dont keep on rubbing it in. W didnt answered. This entire wknd I noticed W didnt called OM at all. I am wondering if she will do so whenever she moves out or have better plans. For me, I can only live 24 hrs at a time and only focus myself around 24.

That's my wknd drama.

[chicki]

MMH,

So sorry to hear your no so good weekend, but you did turn it around for you!!! That is one good thing! I think you should continue to GAL BY YOURSELF. Try not including your W for a little while and see if she gets curious. Maybe your not being mysterious enough? Sometimes changing things up a bit is what they need. Ya know rahter than the expected same ol same ol. Remember when she no longer lives ther she wont be able to see that if needed be you CAN get along fine w/out her. Show her NOW while she still lives there.

As for me I could of done seem serious GAlng not having the kids but I didnt $ crunch right now, but still it was kinda nice to have the house to myself.

Hey I get what you mean as far the opposite sex thing. Next Sunday I am going to the football game here w/ Jared & we will be in the ooh la la big folks suites!! I am looking forward to it. I hope I dont run into H though.

[MissingMyHoney]

chicki, last year I was away from my family for approx 5 months, no separation here but I moved from Texas for a job in MD and then was transfered to MO. To date, the W still says I walked out. What I need to do is go through my emails and see which one I sent to her specifically detailing the job and acceptance letter.

While I was away, I mostly stayed at home and didnt do too much GAL. I am independent, I dont ask the W to do anything for me and if she does then thats her choice. I proved to her already I can live alone and have done so. W cannot do this financially since she will be squeezing every penny she make. In contrast, I am ok financially.

When W and D moved her in December, I relocated all her household items which are still in storage since I have all my furniture and dont need her. W has a 1 bedroom full of furniture which sits in storage. We have a mirror of every piece of furniture she likes.

To get into details would require me to write all day.