One of the things that go me through it last time was journaling. I've already written about 20 pages since yesterday!

Thanks for your support - I'm afraid I don't have the strength to do it again. And you know what? I feel as if I did everything I could to save this marriage, but I guess I can't. I could never believe it was real again, so I'm feeling that it would be a waste of time.

You have to be separted for 12 mos in MD to get a no-fault divorce, so basically I'm telling myself to just go dark, RELAX, and do nothing for the next 12 mos, and try to enjoy having the house to myself.

On the bright side, I don't have to host any Thanksgiving, don't have to decorate for Christmas, and will be able to lose weight again, because I won't be able to eat. Those are good things.

IN4RIDE

In4ride
Me 50, H 55, M 17 yrs
1st Bomb Drop 12/7/03
Separated mostly in house
Come back together/H breaks back 9/04
Piecing, surgeries, recovery, H retires
2nd Bomb Drop 9/3/07 H moves out 20 min later