You can't know for sure that things won't change. It does sound like you're starting to come to grips with things that NEED to change, and that's a good step. You've mentioned not being number 1 a bunch of times, but I think this is the first time you've said that NOT being number #1 isn't acceptable to you ("I refuse to settle for anything less." -- nor should you.)
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H is on our big vacation that we had planned (and made me pay for half anyway).
What?! How can he "make you pay." Don't let him control you.
You are a 29 year old adult. Stand up to him, WAW. If he can't handle that, if he can't handle you being strong, then you deserve better. He doesn't deserve you. I know you want to save this M, but you walked out because you were bending to what he wanted. M is a two way street, but he needs to walk in your direction too.
Keep focusing on you. I can sympathize with not wanting to go to the wedding. Still, get out, do some fun things. As you recommended to me, fill up your time with new hobbies and adventures. Have some fun.
BD
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY
