I'm flying to TX to have dinner with my W tomorrow (wednesday). A little bit nuts but it's not something I would normally do so I thought it would be a good surprise. I told W about it last week and it seemed to be good but in the past couple of days, it feels like she's been pulling back emotionally from me, farther than normal. My friend thinks it's because she (W) is scared that I'm going to pressure her for some answer on the marriage so W is gearing up to shoot me down. Puttin space between us so it's easier for her to do because I know W still has feelings for me but she doesn't want to lose her resolve for the D because it still seems like the only option in her mind.
I'm nervous as hell about this. I know what I need to do, I know I need to just take her to dinner have a good time and not talk about the R. I've been over it a hundred times in the past weeks, I'm just worried that when push comes to shove, I'm going to make a mistake like I always seem to. I'll say something I shouldn't or lose my cool and come off needy or something. I know I can do this, but I've put my foot in my mouth twice in the past week so that's eroded my confidence a little.
