Thank you mkultra for the kind words. We have had a very rough year and I know most of it is my fault due to issues we were having due to my family and things that I did that I should not have. I guess I was in a place where I thought after all these years (11) that we were set so if I was having a rough time and taking it out on him it was OK and he would understand. Well I learned my lesson the very hard way. It was not OK and I wish I had realized it sooner.
I am seeing a MC today so I am hoping that she can help me in finding ways to make him understand that I am not that person anymore. I really do not want to be. I have been happy with myself and just did nothing to change it and now I am not sure how to.
How do I make myself better when I think so low of myself for what I have done?
