You live in Stanton? By Disney land right? To Bad I was planning my trip and was going to have a stop over at either Barstow or Tehachapi. Was thinking I could stop by buy you are kind of out of the way
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
yes Stanton is by Disneyland, but that is my hometown, where I grew up. I live in Murrieta now, which is an hour south east of Stanton in Riverside County, right by the San Diego border. We have Pechanga casino in nearby Temecula.
I know how you feel, Cali. I can't stand being home most of the time. Sometimes you just have to get out, but it's so hard to do when you feel like crap.
I'm over here in Downey. My mother lives in Stanton. We're practically neighbors!
Anyway, remember most affairs last approx 6 months. Leace them to their own devices. I honestly believe that a relationship based on lies and betrayals is doomed to fail. The question really is, how long are you willing to wait, and will you be able to move on after the OW is gone.
My H hasn't spoken or even checked on his kids in almost a week. I think this is the worst thing he's done yet. However, I have to say my 2 yr old asks abot him less and less. When he does see or speak to H, it just re-opens the wound and takes several days for him to stop crying for his dad. I'm almost thinking "good riddance." Reject me. I'm an adult and have done my share to damage this relationsship. However, our children are innocent, and they don't deserve to be treated like this.
Sorry, was supposed to chear you up.
Tomorrow is another day. Try not to focus on what you don't have. Enjoy what you do!
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9
Well I was all up to do that. Then I realized it is just to hot, so we are still having hamburgers but cooking them in the house.
For some reason I can not get out of this funk today. Feeling so down and sorry for myself. Feeling like this whole thing is not fair, and who am I to kid myself that my H will ever consider coming back. I started thinking about the two of them and it just is not helping.
I know I see little positive signs, but sometimes I think I am reading into them more then I should. I think maybe he is just happy that I no longer give him grief, give him guilt, and can be his friend. But that is not what I want, but I cant let him know that. So he is moving forward carrying on with his OW while I am here all alone. I just sometimes think maybe I should just give up on DB because I am to freaking lonely. I just want companionship and someone to love me, my H does not love me, or not enough to not do the things he has and is doing to me.
Cali,
I could have written this today. I think we are on the same channel Where is that @X@!@ Remote..
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Must be something in the air today. Probably all this friggen heat getting to us? I know it was only labor day, but I am one of those that makes a big deal out of all holidays, birthdays etc. We always celebrate everything around here, and I think I just was not prepared for doing it on my own for the first time. Dang it, if I still am in the boat for Thanksgiving and Christmas, God give me strength!!
Ya still farther out of my way. Maybe next time I'll go to mexico. LOL
I am not suposed to be released to go back to work until Oct 1st but I am starting to miss it.
never though I would say that
Yep, I am on your way to Mexico. Of course if there are any other californians here who want to come down to Temecula, for a Pechanga Casino weekend (not as exciting as vegas but still fun) I will be happy to host.
Hoping I can make vegas work. No way to know what my sitch will be by then, and have to worry about childcare, etc?
