Actually, technically speaking you are a Gemini. The "sun signs" were devised about 2 millenia ago, and are based on the constellation the Sun is "in" on the day of your birth. Because the Earth's axis of rotation has precessed slightly in the last 2000 years, everyone's sign is one sign off. Everyone is really one sign earlier than they think they are ... i.e. Gemini's are Taurus's, Taurus's are Aries, etc.
Sorry to hear about sadness, depression. Sounds like there were a few signs of hope, but I know how the little things can get drowned out in that sadness that is caused by fear of an unknown future.
Is there something fun you've wanted to do for awhile that you haven't allowed yourself to do for one reason or another? Is there some way you can just go do that?
Be well Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
