Cali, I know it is so hard to detach, but don't give up yet. He's only been gone a couple of weeks. You might want to think about going to dr. and checking out anti-depressants. I held off for a long time going, but got to talking to friends and found out so many were one them. People I would have never dreamed of. Wish I would have done it earlier. It sure changed my mood. I still have my down days sometimes, but at least I can function now. Before all I could do was think of H and OW. I couldn't sleep, eat, think, work, stay still, you name it.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon