Well I was all up to do that. Then I realized it is just to hot, so we are still having hamburgers but cooking them in the house.
For some reason I can not get out of this funk today. Feeling so down and sorry for myself. Feeling like this whole thing is not fair, and who am I to kid myself that my H will ever consider coming back. I started thinking about the two of them and it just is not helping.
I know I see little positive signs, but sometimes I think I am reading into them more then I should. I think maybe he is just happy that I no longer give him grief, give him guilt, and can be his friend. But that is not what I want, but I cant let him know that. So he is moving forward carrying on with his OW while I am here all alone. I just sometimes think maybe I should just give up on DB because I am to freaking lonely. I just want companionship and someone to love me, my H does not love me, or not enough to not do the things he has and is doing to me.
