Based upon your recent posts, it appears that you have not read the contents of your own thread. It's obvious to me that you have flat-out ignored what mkultra & I wrote.
I will tell you this: Reconciliation will not happen unless you change.
Please go back and look at what I wrote, especially #3. You are never gonna fix this if you continue to obsess about things that are outside of your control. You have put yourself on the emotional rollercoaster.
If you want an online journal, then I suggest that you get a blog. This is not the place for blogging. If you ask for help, please have the courtesy to read what others have taken the time to write in response.
