Ok now: H was here for about an hour talking about our To-Do-List for the job. It was kind of relaxed, we were sitting on the couch together working on the notbook. And by the end we both stated, that we're on the best way to come to terms with our Business-Problems. But then now just after he left, I broke out in tears again, coz I MISS him so much. I know at the same time, that this is complete nonsense coz I see him everyday. And I feel, that my DBing-ideas kind of work - if they wouldnt I guess I'd still be hurt, shouting at him, blaming him and all that. I do detach also - but it does NOT yet always feel good. Does anybody of you have experience in setting themselves a long term goal - like: I think it's better for us to make nothing like physical happen between us for like a month or so?
I do NOT always want to be available - but mostly I GOT to - regarding our common business.
