You are not a bad mother. Everyone nees some me time.
Cook out for your children. It will get back to H and he will see what he missed. Make sure to cook children's favorites so they will be excited to talk to him about it. Do something fun with the kids. Have a water balloon fight, get the water hose after them. Heck even wash your car kids love to do that!
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon