Hey all. Thanks for stopping by. CatFan, sorry it's gotten too negative here. I don't have time to post a lot, much less read, so I can't talk to that. I'll have to stop by and read your stuff. I used to log in every morning first thing on getting up, way back when I was in PA and could still drink beer ...lots of it!!!! You were always at the top of the list! Of course, I'd be second. You must be getting pretty fed up. My sadness is always jsut below the surface.
One year this week is when we separated, and I still get choked up thinking about it. I actually wept as I left the house. I had to throw away gag ties that she gave me over the years, as it devastated me. I remember it like it was yesterday. I don't know how people get through this. I think of my poor kids having to face a broken howm and I get furious and sad at the same time. They DON'T RECOVER, DR. PHIL!!!!!
COG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where have you been???? You literally have been with me since the first day I posted, almost a full year ago. I took your advice and sent two long emails, expecting nothing. NOTHING'S TOO GOOD FOR FLTC, AND NOTHING HE'LL GET!
I still have a tough time getting by the day she dropped me off to go to Ft. Bragg and then Iraq, when my kids were hanging on me, and she could not find it in herself to say goodbye, or be careful...or anything. What is wrong with her. She really has been a cold-hearted bitch since the day I left. Remember Christmas and the "microplaner"? Totally undifferentiated anger Or the anger over not finding a hockey jersey? Not right.
She was almost civil the past couple of times on the phone. she's still strapped for cash as my daughter's program in Utah is about 7K per month, even though all my hardship pay and regualr pay is tax free here in Iraq. Oh well, I've got almot another full year here in the Cradle of Civilization. Write when you get time.
