I’m sorry it had to be that way and I can understand you giving up hope and that I haven’t given you much to hope for.
As I said before, I am closer to being able to come to terms with a few things. I know you are who you are and I am who I am. I know we can have some good weekends together but the thought of getting to the point we were before scares the crap out of me. It wasn’t good for either of us. If we are ever together again I want to be forever.
I keep asking myself every day if this is the day that I feel strong enough to be back with you. Until I can say yes to myself, I can’t say yes to you. You know I still have feelings for you or I wouldn’t be putting myself through this every day. If I didn’t I would have already filed.
Other than that I don’t know what to say. If you feel you need to move forward I can’t stop you nor would I fault you for it.
