So...my update today. I moved out tonight. Didn't have to take much. Just my clothes, essentials, and computer since I moved to my officemate's house. I'm hoping this is just a temporary thing and I'm renting a room in his house. So if you guys recall I requested to move out tonight instead of yesterday afternoon. It certainly seems to have turned out to be a good thing I think....
The W says that just the past 2 days she has been really struggling with me moving out. She was feeling quite emotional. She really thought she wouldn't feel much since she said that she had dealt with the "loss" 3 years ago and has been detached. So apparently it seems she feels quite a bit for me still. She says that she is determined to work through her issues during the separation and when she does then we can get back together again and try piecing. She said that for the first time she can actually envision a future with us and being a happy family. While we were parting, she said she is actually really excited about our future together and is really looking forward to it. She seems to be determined and looking forward to jump on working on her personal issues and the resentment starting tomorrow. I even got a couple of ILYs from her and she really means them!
I am really happy that she is starting to turn around. Here's hoping she doesn't change her mind.... I am going to be cautiously optimistic and be encouraged to work on myself and GAL. I do worry a little since at times when she is down and not feeling good about herself she tends to doubt everything. I hope and pray that she is strong and she will get through this. I do miss her and the kids and the S will be hard. But I am more hopeful now about the fact that things will work out in the end.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
