Yep, come on sun. Yeah, I bet you won't miss driving on that stretch of icy I-5. Thanks again, Trip... I am feeling good about myself. I am slowly but surely getting closer to having a career of my own that I'm excited about.
Just taking a break from some cleaning right now. Looking forward to meeting my Mom for these super yummy smoothies later this afternoon. We try to meet every week, but it didn't fit last week.
Wanted to share this nice text I got this morning from my H. I guess because it felt completely genuine and so has stuck with me today.... "Hey baby. Thanks 4 all ur encouragement. ........"
I didn't even know I was encouraging him. That was nice to be greeted with first thing this morning, and interesting that he called me "baby" considering what I've put out there for him. I wasn't going to be surprised if he laid off anything that could be seen as flirting after what I said to him Monday night, so it does lead me to believe he IS trying. There have been quite a few other texts over the last several days that have been really nice and I appreciate them... and I've let him know, and I reciprocate. Just need to see more action, such as asking me out on a real date or something. We'll see.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
Not much to report, just wanted to journal here a little. Soon after I shared my thoughts yesterday regarding my H, I noticed that I started playing devil's advocate in my head. Guess I felt the need to balance out some hopefulness I was starting to get wtih some skepticism. I'm having to work a little harder at keeping the focus on ME and my goals today, and not wonder where H's head is at or what he's up to. This morning, I decided to be the one to send a nice text to him and just wished him a great day which wasn't all easy for me since I hadn't heard anything from him since yesterday morning. Never heard back, and my mind has tried to play with that here and there. Figured it couldn't hurt to just post about it, even though I'm expecting this will pass quickly.
Finally watched the movie The Pursuit of Happyness last night. Great movie. Really enjoyed it. Well, funny.... just got a text from H as I'm typing this... saying thanks & sending his love. I guess he's working with his friend again today. Getting his butt worked hard on his days off. Glad to see it, and the best kind of friend he could be spending his time around I feel.
Anyhows... great movie. Another good movie I watched night before last... The Painted Veil. It is about infidelity, but quite enjoyable I should say.
Is there anything better than fresh berries?
I am gonna be glad when I'm finished with studying for this exam.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
Taking yet another practice exam. Even though these are repeats for me, still not overly confident. When I aced one of my final exams and got a 98% on the other portion for my course, you'd think I wouldn't be worried at all. Ha. Will just be glad to have this behind me. Hopefully that will be on Saturday.
Excited to hear about your D's reaction this afternoon, when she sees her Monster Badge and Monster Mist.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
Hey J, I think it's a very strong sign that you are playing devils advocate with yourself. Besides, you know that I would if you didnt so you saved me a whole lot of typing by doing so.
Baby steps for him sweetie, you are still what matters most. Try not to lose sight of that even if he continues with the positive steps. It is not about him no matter what occurs, even if he is on his way back, you need to stay focused on the path that you have chosen for yourself.
We talked before about the picture you are painting for your life and how if he chooses to join you then he has to fit into the picture. You do not change your picture for him.
I will be thinking about you tomorrow, good luck with the test, I know you will do fantastic...... Just a step down your path to happiness.....
That is behind me now. Yay! Feels like I have closed a chapter of my life, and am onto a new one. It's really nice to be accomplishing something for myself while my M continues not to look promising. Yesterday wasn't a great day, and I was up in the middle of the night for a few hours... but it just makes today all the more joyful. Thank you, Julie! You are always there for me. Was sure nice to end the yesterday with some laughs with you.
I'll post more later, but I'm going out to celebrate now.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
J, did you love my picture I sent you or what... hows that for Karma today... you were on my mind.....and poof that place is in the mall I go to.....YAY for your test results to......
great movie. Another good movie I watched night before last... The Painted Veil. It is about infidelity, but quite enjoyable I should say.