well MK - I'm actually on both sides of that fence. You see I am the one who cheated. One time. But that was enough. Never mind what all led up to it at home. We only discuss what "I" did to ruin our marriage.
I'm seeing a lot of truths right now and to be honest, what's weird is I'm finally "at peace"....my stomach is pretty normal...and I don't have the ache for him like I did. Maybe I have my own band aid, but this band aid pays attention to me, and is a sweet guy. I am not looking for permanent anything, but companionship.
What's funny is a few weeks ago, I'd asked XH if he'd p/u our divorce papers because he was going to the next day. According to him, there were "too many painful memories of downtown" so he just didn't venture that way....
But Saturday he had his EA on his Harley and took her to the restaurant where we met -- a place he said he'd NEVER take a woman.
He hasn't seen or talked to his daughter in a week. I'm really seeing what kind of "man" he is....and to be quite honest, I wish he'd just terminate his rights to her, because this isn't fair to her. She is suffering. She's very needy right now, clingy to the point of desperation with me, all because she misses him and maybe feels somewhat abandoned.
You go from seeing your daughter daily, to moving out and still seeing her daily to every other weekend? Selfish @$$.....and I can't believe he's turned out like this. I just can't.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
