Hi guys! Thanks Nikki, I am trying!

just have a little time to chat... we've had some good times, but it's also hitting me as to where I am in my growth and R with H. I do feel jealous of you Nikki sometimes, because I honestly can't say some of the things you do, like "we had so much fun doing this or that". It's almost like I lost the ability to have fun or something. I use to be really crazy/silly/weird when I was younger. Didn't need alchohol to have fun. Now, I don't know what my problem is. maybe it's me judging things around me. I really don't know.

We have had some good times though. I'm hoping to have a lot of fun tonight. We got free tickets to a show called Stomp. It's a drum kinda thing where they use trash cans, sticks, whatever. It's suppose to be really good, and the tickets are regularly 50-100. Last night we did hang out with his friends. They were actually all dead from no sleep, so they all quit really early. I was kinda glad cause I really don't get into all the gambling. It makes me sad seeing people throw away 2k in 15 minutes (a guy who was playing Black Jack next to H) and I'm just thinking. wow. I hope that guy was rich. then I also hope he gives money to charity too cause there are so many people less fortunate. See what I mean by the judging thing. It's not like I'm thinking he's a horrible person, it's just I feel sorry for others who could be helped or sorry for him if he really didn't have the ability to loose 2k like that.

okay, I need to stop!!!! \:\) I'm going to have fun, I just got a tan...well, I'm darker than clear now, and I just sold two more bottles and our trip is tax deductible! So that is great!

I'll let you know how the show goes. probably write again and visit your posts in a few days.

cya!

Me 33 H 34 S9 S3
M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs)
EA/PA 1/2006
DB 5/2006
H wants D 6/2006
H wants ME 8/2006
H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006
H erased OW off phone! 2/2007

"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."