Why do these things happen lX

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Thanks Sara, cire2, Jazz, Mk, JR, Meghan, and Morgan for the thoughts.
I am not there yet but doing my best and not jumping the gun either. I have not told anyone one that I know yet, no friends, my family, her family, yeah even her BIL who is my best friend. I don't want to curse anything. As far as I know neither has she.

One thing I forgot to mention on my last post is that she did make the comment last night that if I had done anything to try and keep her, she would of just gone further away. That when she told me she was filing, OM, anything, she actually wanted to see if I would fight for her. When I didn't, she somehow knew it was right. I won't even try to understand that logic but I guess it worked for her.

I still cannot believe what is happening, someone smack me over the head to make sure it is real.