Plank removed from eye, too late for WAW? 4

[Heimlich]

Quick Journal

Brought a few boxes to my apt. today. Bought a bed. Ended up with a Sealy memory foam, closest to the tempurpedic celebrity bed that we bought last year and that I got used to sleeping on.

Met W and D9 at Target. Got a few things for the apt. W helped D pick out a few things for her room/bathroom. Little weird, given why we were there, but also friendly at the same time. Got my hair cut before I met them there. When I walked in, she put her hands on the back of my head to feel the cut a bit. Hadn't done that in a while, seem to be getting more physical touch from her. Not sure it means anything, but better than no touch. Anyway, touched her lightly on the back and arm a few times, she didn't pull or shrink away.

Checked out, put stuff for my apt in the car, stuff for house in the van. Can't remember what she said, something friendly. She was about to get into the seat. I kindof leaned in and then pulled back and must've got a strange look on my face. She asked me what was the matter, I'll give you a hug. Said that I leaned in for a kiss then remembered where we are. She gave me a hug, so that was OK. I said I'm a little excited about moving in to the apt, but that the 'door is closed'. She said "you mean open" I said, "yes, don't know why I said that."

Cooked some steaks and potatos on the grill (I'm gonna miss my grill), had a good dinner. Watched an episode of Monk together. Putting D9 to bed. Standing in the hall. D9 gave W a hug. W was tired, she turned to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek and a hug and went to bed. First kiss on the cheek in, poop, quite a while.

Oh, she also said while we were futzing around at the van that "this will be good for us." Still no idea what that means. Will this be good for us as a reconciliation possibility or will this be good for us so that we can get on with our lives. Who the hell knows. Living and acting like the later, hoping for the former.

Just another day in paradise

Life is getting better though. Feel like I'm moving forward, one way or the other, and that's good.

BD