Still confused on the conversation part--he's called me almost every day just to chat, like everyday conversation.
Small talk, doens't last real long but very friendly.

He hasn't been mean, rarely angry, but I do notice that he tries to call me and if there's no answer he calls a couple more times (I have been avoiding calls sometimes) and then asks what I had been up to.
Do I mention it in general conversation? Do I talk like all is well? Do I fill him in to show him that I am out and about since he wouldn't know it otherwise (OTR driver and rarely home).
We make small talk, laugh and kid around...I have no expectations from him. He's been good on finances too. I mean it's almost just as normal....except for OW and his ILUBNILWU crap.
Do I just ignore or is it ok to continue as it is? I've read DR, trying to apply , but until I get to talk to the counselor I'd like some advice.
I've avoided some calls, he's called more. Which was one of my goals. I've mentioned that I've been "out" and he'll ask where, I don't tell him. He's confusing me so bad.
For instance, tells me the talk --then I break down, he hugs me then pulls me to his lap, then we lay on the couch the rest of the night in each others arms. Next day tells me about splitting finances, takes all his clothes. Gives me hugs, and yes we had lots of great sex << I know, I shouldn't have...then leaves, then calls me constantly...talk about confusing.

I've basically given up as far as him coming back, trying to accept what he says (deep inside I hope things work out, but..)
I'm tired of hurting, tired of crying, the anguish, and not sleeping.
It's half of my life and for him to say he's in love with someone else is too painful for me to think I can wait for over a year or more. I am doing DB'ing but when I read the forums they want to tell me how nasty the WS is and so far he hasn't been. I want my marriage back, I'll stay focused, GAL, pray, DB more, and wait and see.
I just don't know how to talk to him.


H is OTR driver - 48
Me 49
married 24yrs
2 sons, 22/20
H going thru MLC