You will come back you M may or may not, but things will be different no matter what happens. Do not fear the future no matter what it brings. Embrace your new life and make the best of it.
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My emotional side would love to show up at his door tomorrow and call him on this, make him see what he did to me and our family.
He knows , some way you need to find a way to forgive him so that you can let it go and move forward. If you are to have any chance at all in the future you are going to need to forgive him. There is no way back for him if he thinks he will get punished for it.
Remember the Dog analogy .
A dog runs away from its owner , The owner runs after the dog shouting and the dog runs harder. Once its left alone it comes home and rather than a reward for coming home it get a scolding and hit. Next time the dog runs away its afraid to come home so it stays away a bit longer and gets a bigger beating when it does come home and so on. Now if that dog had been met with happyness and kindness when it came home ???
