"Thank you. I know we both just have some hurt in r heart 4 each other. Cause i know, personally, that u r the best thing in my life actually. I just didn't treat the best thing with the care i should have. Like ur house or a favorite car. U start to neglect it. Sometimes until it is too late. Thats painful to take sometimes when u step back and see the damage done."
That is nice. Don't get me wrong... I appreciate it, but I got a laugh out of his analogy. And I guess I just need to vent a little... is it really so painful for him? Damage? I think I have showed him... especially today... a woman who is SO grateful for the wake-up call I was given by him leaving, and who has become so strong. And is so happy and at peace, considering. THAT is damage? I'm sure that's not what he means, and he is not just thinking of me, but it's where my mind went for a moment. Could he not be happy for me? And I haven't closed the f'in door on him YET. Wake up, buddy! It's coming, because you aren't getting your act together. I know there is damage, and we both displayed some of it today... but can he not focus on the positive? and try to stop doing damage?
I sat there today, AGAIN listening to and observing this man show NO motivation to take action with his life and his M. Just what I saw, anyway. That's not a man I want to be married to, and I want to get on with my life. He is an accident waiting to happen. I don't see much in the way of self-control or values or morals. He's just sorry when he gets caught doing stupid sh^t. He said he had no plans, no goals, no dreams. That's sad. But, it's not like me to focus on the negative... just venting it. There's always so much going on in the picture, and that's only part of it.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
