Just so you know, GGB's post about how overwhelmed he was feeling by all this EQ stuff, and how frustrated he was feeling because his wife turned him down... is what set me off.
And I wasn't frustrated with him... but when I read that... I felt... great sadness. And all that links to my own crap... and because I don't like feeling sad... the feeling just amped up... it's easier/less threatening to me to feel frustration.
All this happened because I got too emotionally invested in outcomes. I really want him, and all of you who are seeing some sense and hope in all of this... to really succeed. <-- and while noble... that is MY PROBLEM.
Cobra:
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I FEELS to me like I am frustrating you, so first let me say that I understand your points and how I am holding on to a certain amount of power and that I am doing a certain amount of manipulation with that power. I never excused myself from that option. I believe in taking action rather than sitting around for my W to come to some sort of realization. I have good reason for this.
Sweety, you don't frustrate me. You absolutely astound me with your rationalizations and the most superior abilities to deflect... we are so far afield from the original purpose/point of our discussion... and before you go into how I played a part in that, save it. I don't care.
You are your own problem, Cobra. That's my opinion. I know you don't agree with me. End of discussion.
The rest of this stuff with you... is kind of like a dazzled wonder... like... I would feel if we had decided to take a car trip to Orlando, but ended up in Alaska instead. I'd sit there and think, how in the heck did THAT happen? {chuckle}.
