Early this week I was a little surprised to see how much you had upped your postings. You were doing some really good stuff, making some very enlightening insights, and it was clear that many people were getting something out of it. It was also becoming clear to me that YOU were getting something out of it. I have no problem with that, you should get some sense of satisfaction out of helping people. You have a LOT to offer.
But what I was wondering was whether this was running as a cycle and if it was, how long would it last? Also, how high would it go and would there be a downside. I think the “peak” was on Tuesday, when you almost seemed “giddy” at some progress others were posting, especially in this comment to Hairdog:
#1178755 - 08/28/07 09:39 AM Re: Corri's Workshop [Re: hairdog]
HD: Quote: Eh...don't be happy for me. I may "get it" on paper, but I'm still a long way from living it. Kind of like the genius teacher of economics, who continues to be a spendthrift.
Sorry. I'm still happy for you. Even have tears in my eyes.
Now all this is only my opinion and is only based on the words I see on my screen, but I felt you well feeling pretty good. You made 33 posts on that one day.
Then you decided to get into my stuff:
#1179666 - 08/28/07 08:16 PM Re: Corri's Workshop [Re: Corri] Cobra: I'm giving you a heads up on something. I am ready to call you on your B.S. I'm not going to do it to piss you off.
Corri
No problem for me. I enjoy the exchanges with you and I was looking forward to it. But it seemed to me that as we got more into it, something in my “deflections” was eating at you. The problem as I see it is not that you weren’t getting the feedback from me that you had hoped for (ie, validation), but you were also striving for more (after so much success on Monday and earlier on Tuesday) when it may not have been possible for the population of posters, including myself, to give you more. So my responses coincided with a natural peak in this validation cycle that had come about, and down the cycle things went.
Now remember, this is only my theory. But look at the number of posts you made during August. Think back if you can on how you felt as each peak in postings was reached and whether there is a cyclicality that you unknowingly went through.
I think the 30 posts on the 31st is a function of your frustration with me and maybe an attempt to get back up to the validation peak that you felt on the 28th. In both cases, the positive and the negative emotions you may have been feeling (which is only conjecture on my part) may have spurred you to post to such excess that you burned yourself out.
I’m not saying there was ANYTHING wrong in any of this. It is just a simple observation on my part that might help you to find your internal balance. K?
