I LOVE living alone

[forever21]

Good morning, friends. Bright and early for a Saturday.

Thank you, Julie and HS... so much.

Jules... I can't thank you enough. You are always there for me.

So, quick update on the M front....
Caught H in a lie. Big surprise. There isn't much revealed at this point, and it doesn't really make a big difference to me. Bottom line is I am DBing his butt off, and enjoying it. I had my time yesterday, when it first all came up, where I wasn't sure what I would do and/or not do and had to just let it go and get my mind off of it. Julie was great support, as usual.

I let him know in a nonchalant way last night on the phone.(and hadn't even planned on bringing it up... the right opportunity just presented itself and it went perfectly) The kind of surprising thing was that he was honest AND didn't try to lie, when I asked him if he had worked last Sunday... he said "No, I didn't," showing in his voice that he felt remorseful. I asked him "Why did you lie to me about it?" (I couldn't have ever pulled that off when I wasn't lovingly detached... I would've had a hint of frustration, anger, or disappointment in my voice.... and he then would've lied about lying) H... "I was evasive. It was my day off.... I'm sorry." with a lot of guilt and some remorse... pretty honest for him, but didn't come out with the real WHY. I was quite surprised when he admitted he had been evasive. He proceeded to add that he went on a ride that day. Me: oh, on your motorcycle? H: yeah. Me: Ahh... and left it at that because it was a diversion on his part and possibly starting to go onto making up stories. He was really sorry. I kept a great attitude, and was as kind and respectful to him as I would've been any other time. I told him it wasn't surprising (just matter-of-factly, no rubbing anything in), and that I feel bad for him that he doesn't have more respect for himself. I texted him after that convo, to thank him for being honest about being evasive... told him I appreciated that and respect him for doing that, that it took a man. He texted back to thank me and said he needed that. Anywho, there was more that came up in our phone convo but no time to post.

So, the reason we were even on the phone is because I texted him asking him if he'd like to meet me for coffee this morning. He said he would, but he was curious as to whether it was anything serious. I answered his questions he texted me but he ended up calling, lol. This was pretty funny as it all went down. I had a real plan already in place for what I was going to talk to him about this morning over coffee. And it had nothing to do with the latest news, but I guessed he might be nervous about it. I meet him in less than an hour.

My plan came from the concept of showing your H unconditional respect, which is from the book Love & Respect. Julie had brought it up the other day, when I was talking to her about some of the stuff that had come up with H this week. I was reading this book and came up with this plan to kill him with respect (like kill em with kindness). I'm taking things one day at a time, but just want to tell him what all I respect about him and then I think I will be giving myself some space from him. Don't know if I'll feel like hanging out with him like we did last week, but haven't made my decision.

K, more later... need to get outta bed and get ready.

Have a great Saturday!!!