CW's H just called me. I told him that I can't speak with him, and he said he heard about what happened on Monday and won't tell his wife that he spoke with me. He just needed the address number (the numbers are all messed up on my street) and the correct spelling of my name for his counter-suit. He is filing for D, citing adultery.

He told me that CW admitted that the first time they had sex was LAST July, not this past April as H had told me. Said that she went to MY house while the kids and I were in the city, and she just needed a hug, but it went way beyond that. They had sex in my basement. He asked if I could look back to my calendars last year and see what the exact date was.

So, more lies. After he has said repeatedly that there is nothing left to lie about.

I am using the 48 hour rule, but plan on confronting him with it on Monday or Tues, depending when she gets served (he asked that I wait until she is, as she doesn't even know the paperwork is coming).

I am a bit tight in the stomach, but not devestated. And I am done. This man has no respect for me, no respect for anything. He was sleeping with me up through this Feb.

I have to think about what this means for the kids. What kind of person has he become? What will be in the kids' best interest? I am thinking that I ask that he go into counseling before he continues seeing them unsupervised. I might have to think about sole custody, which is terrible. But, my God, where have his morals gone? How much lower can this whole thing go? I am grateful that I have the kids this weekend.

This is the moment. I can feel it. I don't want him back. He is not worthy of me, my children, or having his family. He deserves whatever hell he has brought himself to. I am angry and disappointed, but not enraged.

I wonder when he really left. But it doesn't matter, as I can't see anything working, now.

He wanted strong...he is going to regret that. He has no idea how strong I can be about my kids. What a waste...