God Bless you and thank you Sara. Everything you said is correct about how you see my situation. Friends and family have told me that I should walk away from her for a long time, even before this happened prior to June, 06. They have witnessed my wife's behavior on a number of occassions.
I've grown spiritally and have interior peace now that I never knew existed. I have changed with God's help for humans cannot change themselves. I used to complain about my health and there is a point I am making with this.
For years my left shoulder had pain and it has increased over time. I had arthroscopic surgery in 1989. Today, I cannot strech both arms to pick up something with weight, such as a blender on the 2nd shelf without pain. My right shoulder hurt too. Then about a month ago, I was experiencing pain on my left elbow. That got so severe, that my hand would go numb, fingers would get cold and my hand would begin to shake. It hurt from my right shoulder to my hand. Still, I said nothing or did anything until my dad noticed me move my arm suddenly on a visit at his house and I yelled in pain.
Now I am assuming this is due to over-extensive use on a computer as an accountant. So I surfed the internet and found some causes that it could be. I found tennis elbow, arthritis, tendinitis to a worse case scenerio of Lou Gehrig's disease.
Now I read each one and reflected on the least cause to Lou Gehrig's disease and how would I handle that. I prayed and meditated on it and it didn't take long for me to come up with an answer. First off I would accept what ever it was because to not accept it does no good anyway. I still had the problem. Secondly, I would resign myself to the Will of God and if that is what God Wills, I would rejoice in it too no matter what. I would offer this pain to God for the salvation of sinners. My confessor agreed with me when I approached him with this and it was comforting to hear that God is calling me to do something.
Last week I saw an orthropedist and after x-rays, I have arthritis and bone spurs in both my left and right shoulder and tendinitis in my right elbow. I do some exercises and ice it everyday. The doctor told me to take Advil or some other anti-inflamatory meds but becasue of problems with my digestive system, I can't because I would bleed from there too and I told him that. So he said I will have to gring and bare it and I said I know I do.
The doctor does not know that I have pain on the back of both my legs in the area of the knee cap, especially when I sit for long streches of time. Its not that bad and I can handle it.
I will probably not post to much anymore but will surf your site Sara,
