I'm sorry you keep going back to the same position. I hope the D works out for you and you find what you are looking for in your life.
If you want to try a different strategy, all I would do is give you the same advice I have repeated over and over in this thread and in your last thread. You make some movement toward hearing it and acting on it, and then cycle back to where you are now. I can see that my words cannot find you.
Thus, like I said. You win. I'm done. I got to this point before and I should have stuck with it. This latest round of dialogue has gone nowhere. I know you have tried to the best of your ability. I believe that there is a roadblock to you trying in a fully invested way that might lead to change. I know I can do nothing about the roadblock. I believe you also currently lack the resources to do anything about the roadblock. I believe you when you say you have done your best and that you lack the ability to try in a fully invested authentic way in which you give up control over what happens to the M because H might choose to file.
As for you, it sounds like you have a good IC to help you with whatever comes next. It is wonderful you are open to the IC and working on yourself. It is good that you want to stand up for yourself and seek happiness for yourself. Both are important parts of a great life. Best wishes.
