Just another thought. I didn't wake up one day and say to myself "hey, I want out of this marriage" I've been working at it for 2 years. It has taken me this long to really get in touch with me. What do I want? What do I expect from my husband? What behavior will I accept? I took my time, I'm not making irrational decisions. I'm still trying to hold on to the marriage, I'm just starting to think that I'm not as committed to it anymore, not because we've not tried, but because I want better. He's not the man I thought he was, I see that very clearly now. And if I really want to analyze his A, I think that's one reason he got into it. He could be someone else. He knew that he was becoming transparent to me and that I was starting to see things that concerned me. He wanted to be someone else, the hero, the knight in shining armour, etc. I'm not trying to blame it all on him, I know I have my faults as well, but dang it, I did and have tried. Give me a little credit.
