I knew you were a Type 7 dopamine addict. Welcome to the club! Actually, you remind me much more of Honeypot, another Type 7 HDW than me. You might want to check out her posts from the past. I tend to be a crybaby and you and Honeypot tend more towards anger so her experience might be more enlightening for you.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver