Thanks you guys, I agree but have lost my self control around her. I really need a 2x4 mentally and probably physically as well. It's so hard when I thought I was detaching and moving on, and I find that the feelings were right there all along. She means so much to me and I realize how much I have hurt her, I can't understand how she feels but I know it is deep. I haven't been able to show her love and affection in so long and all I want to do is hold her.
