Jealousy is an evil, strange, powerful emotion. It's not love. It's very selfish. It's about the person feeling jealous, their desire to control the things the "own" (like you?) and their feelings of inadequacy (I should run a spell check on this). I was never much of a jealous type. After my W's A, I can be overwhelmed with it now, but I see it as a self esteem issue and tell myself that I am as good as the OM, I am as deserving, and I don't need to compare myself to him.
Shooting from the hip: What are you hoping for these days? Are you hoping you and XH can work it out and follow his strange plan of remarrying on your anniversary? Are you so good at GALing that you've moved past that and don't care, or maybe don't even want that any more? How's your daughter doing?
M45, W45,S15, D10, Bomb 10/3/06, Moved back in 11/6/06, finally ILY 9/07 last thread
