Thanks everyone. All of your comments made me feel much better. Of course, now I HAVE to clean it myself. Blech.

Limbo, I hope someone/thing hits her smack in the head with a 2x4. I still love her very much, and it does kind of stink that I have to prepare to live without her. C'est la vie. I've accepted that and am moving forward.

Quote:
"you are not my wife, not in any real sense of the word."

I hear what you're saying NDDT, but I bracketed this statement with qualifiers, "for now" and "you know how I still feel." I almost didn't include the line, but did because I was holding on to her so tightly that I just wanted to reinforce to her that I really am letting her go. She knows that I think best when I write, so it probably got noticed.

Bad parents/DB note. D9 lost a tooth last night. I had my second fantasy draft at 6 last night. These two are related. DBing note 1: W was aware, and OK, with me doing the draft and her taking care of the girls. However, there was a back to school night last night that she was going to take the kids to, but ended up that they students weren't really supposed to be there. Sad fine, just take them to dinner and I can deal with them otherwise. That was different from original plans, which always throws her off, was calm, offered a solution, and she took it. That was good. End DBnote 1.

Part of drafting is having an adult beverage during the draft. I had two. I've not been drinking often. I was fairly happy.

Draft ended, got the girls to bed, W came home, we made plans to play tooth fairy.

Here's where the intersection mentioned comes in. I'm usually up late and had planned on slipping the money under her pillow. I fell asleep at 10:30. W got up, but D was still awake. Then she fell asleep. End result: no tooth fairy last night.

Now, our D knows that there's no tooth fairy, but she was upset. I had an "oh, shite" moment when I went to get her up. She pulled out her little baggie with the tooth and just looked at me. Felt a little tiny.

DB note 2: Went to inform my W. She already knew and was crying. Asked her if she wanted a hug and she said yes and I held her for a minute or so while she sobbed (for you, CVA, she was only in a bra and jeans).

Got the girls fed and went upstairs to plan with the W: does the tooth fairly come this afternoon? Later? Have someone in your office write an apology note from the tooth fairy, since she knows our handwriting. Said it'd be pretty funny if the tooth fairy had a form letter, complete with header, etc., "We regret to inform you that due to too many children in China losing their teeth last night, our operatives were too swamped to get to everyone last night. We regret the inconvenience and will before our duty this evening. Regards, TF" That got a laugh out of her. So, she let me hold her to comfort her like she used to, first time in a while. She laughed when I said something silly, that's been off and on.

Happy Friday to everyone,

BD


My latest

Me: 36
W: 35
2 D: 9 and 5
T: 16 years
M: 12
10/4/06: Bomb
10/5/06: Ended A
4/22/07: ILYBNILWY

I'm a beautiful butterfly.