Trying to get WAW back

[DaveJ]

Yeah I've broken the "no R talk" rule so many times it's not even funny. As my W said, I've shot myself in the foot so many times that I don't even have a foot left. I'm working on it. I think that during the S it's probably easier not to talk about R. I don't know. I'm not quite there yet.

Maybe I'm reading into things but I know the W has told one of her brothers that we are hoping to work things out and hopefully able to keep the family together. So at least it seems she has the intention of us working out if she can work through her pain and resentment. I'm really hoping that her therapist can assist her through it. I really think we can build a M that is stronger than ever if she can get past the history. Now I just need to keep my mouth shut and smile.

Slight improvement today. A bit calmer. Not as much stomach twisties. I was able to eat most of my lunch vs only a little bit. I am so tired of my stomach being in a knot! Maybe on the day I move out it will hit me hard. But for now I'm fairly calm.

I really do think my W will miss me terribly. Or at least here's hoping. She is out for couple hours right now unwinding (shopping) cuz the kids drove her crazy the entire day. I put the kids to bed. I wonder what she will do when I'm only there to help her out every other day or so during my visit. Sometimes I do wish she would acknowledge how much burden I take off of her shoulders with the kids so she doesn't go insane.