lwb, nice to have someone really understand. I still haven't put a movie in, so not sure I'll actually watch one after all. I have a book I want to start (john quincy adams biography, yeah, I'm a dork, what can I say), so may go that route instead. I have 2 movies at home...Breach, and One Fine Day. neither sound very good to me, but friends recommended them, so I got them.
if you are looking for a rec, a friend recommended, The Painted Veil. I watched it a month or so ago and it is really sticking with me...highly recommend it.
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M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
(((HUGS))) mk, I'm sorry you are crying. yeah, there is so much to miss, isn't there? even just the little things. but you are right, too, we have the power to be happy...that is the only thing we have full control over, after all. some of it is in their hands, unless we choose to be apart and happy. but we can and will be happy someday. and we will make sure that our kids are, even if this is not how we saw them being raised. I feel so sick for my kids, but then I know I can do my best by them, and maybe, just maybe, it will be enough.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
Oh man, I had to go to a family function the day after bomb was dropped. H was not invited. It was swimming with my family. All of my family members had two parents gathering swim rafts, etc, and here I was, roping my kids in by myself, feeling so alone, no one understanding because they didn't know. Awful.
And mk (HUGS) because its hard, so very hard to go it alone. We can do it, but we don't have to like it.
morgan, One Fine Day is cute. Thanks for the recommendations!! Hope you have a nice night.
lwb, one thing I have found is it is getting easier, the dealing with all the stuff and the kids. I used to freak out about it, but its getting better. still hurts to see the happy families, though. I feel like a failure, like a loser, that I couldn't make my marriage work. like I'm not one of them anymore. but then again, I guess i have all the world open to me now, and who knows how happy those families really are.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
morgan, OMG I feel like such a schmuck out in public, like I'm the chick that can't keep her man. I am the one he cheated on AND continued once he admitted it. Lovely. But yes, you are right, behind closed doors, we will NEVER know what is going on in other houses.
I can tell you that I don't trust anyone. Men, women, no one. Will another mom/friend betray me? Would another man or even my H (if we reconciled) betray me? I can't answer those things.
PS: Morgan. Oh man, I have never seen this episode of The Office, where someone flashed Phylis. HA!
mk, nope, haven't seen superbad...haven't even heard of it. will look it up. have you seen hot fuzz?? omg, soooo funny. saw it in the theatre with h and that was the only bad part...wish he hadn't come with me.
lwb, I had never seen that ep, either, just watched it. not one of my favorites, actually. seemed a little forced. but some funny parts.
about trust...I don't know what is wrong with me, because I do still trust people. In ways, I still even trust h. how sad is that? obviously not in a fidelity/marriage saving way, but I do trust that he won't screw me over in the divorce. probably very naive of me. And I guess since I have never been cheated on in my life (and I was in a few long term relationships prior to meeting h), I do think I could trust someone again. I wonder if that will hold true if/when I get involved with someone? will I feel differently when in the situation?
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
We can do it, but we don't have to like it. 
Thanks for the recommendations!! Hope you have a nice night.